Being human, to a degree, means making mistakes. It means forgetting. It means being absorbed in oneself. And then a lesson comes along, for the
umpteenth time and reminds you just what matters most.
I just found out that a very very dear friend lost her father in death recently. So dear to me is she that I call her simply "Mama."
Here I am worried about things that can be fixed, are daily worries that will never go away, and most certainly are transient. And there she is mourning the loss of her father. A loss that hurts like no other.
I wish so much I could just be with her right now and reach out and give her big hugs and kisses and tell her it will be alright. I wish I weren't so blasted far away. I wish I weren't so wrapped up in my own world that it took me so long to find out what she has been struggling with all these days since his death.
Mama, I am sorry. I am sorry for your loss and also sorry for being so busy I couldn't check in more often just to tell you I love you and if everything is okay.
This follows a severe injury to a wonderfully unique friend that is so special to me that I respect fewer men more. He was injured while working in his garage by an exploding aerosol can. He is alive and making remarkable strides in healing but will be forever different. Physically and mentally. I will not elaborate further. Those who know him know all they need to already. Speedy healing, Timmy Bob. We love you!!
I have learned this lesson - the frailty of life and what is truly important - many times in my life. And then daily life takes over and the lesson gets filed into the "Important but I will think about it later" file in the back of my very cluttered head.
Today I had that file reopened and what a blessing it was to have my eyes opened to look past my recent "troubles" into the face of real problems.
I am moving on a bit lighter for that. Mama, I miss you and love you and I am with you heart and soul forever more - Love Pee Wee.