That's what friends are for

Have you ever been so down on yourself or felt that you could be so much more than you are or that you are giving up too easily - and thus the feelings of guilt that comes with the aforementioned situations? I have - and I do. By way of explanation, Joe and I made the decision that it would be the best for me to come off the pioneer list for a year to refocus and redirect my energies to both physical and mental healing.

I have been struggling with this so much it's hard to put into words. The guilt, the sadness, the doubt. And then I got home today and checked my e-mail. And there it was.....

A wonderful e-mail from a pioneer school buddy, Jessie, that put such a peace in my heart and a smile on my face. Her words were like salve on my wounds or balsam in Gilead as it were.

All I can say is thank you Jehovah for helping me see that I am still useful and very much loved by you. And thank you Jessie for being there to answer my prayers-though you didn't know it until just now!

It's a bird...it's a plane...nah it's just me

My name is Tawnya and it has been a few weeks since my last blog post.

I have been thinking about posting a lot lately but I just haven't gotten there. Well, I'm here now.

News from here: It's October and it's cold and it tried to snow today. No joke.
Also, we celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary on September 30th. It's amazing but I love him more every day. How does that happen I wonder? Well I guess it helps that I find him one of the most adorable creatures and hardworking men that I've ever met in my life. Seriously. He does not sit still when there's work he can be doing. And most of it is hard physical labor. I don't know where he gets the energy from but I do know he's in constant pain and never complains. He just takes it one thing at a time and gets it done. I look up to him so much and am so thankful he chose me to be his Mrs. Happy Anniversary, Mister!

Okay, enough with the mushy stuff. What else is new? Not much really. Just been taking things day after day and tackling things one at a time as best I can.

I do have some exciting news. I now have Sundays off until school is out as I switched with a coworker so she can be at home with her son after school to help with homework. I am hoping soon to have weekends off. Even if that means going back to housekeeping from the front desk and taking a pay cut. I don't care at this point. Everything fun and most everything theocratic happens on the weekends. I am so frustrated with not being able to take part in the activities with the friends I am invited to. Even more frustrating is to have to ask permission and hope that my boss is willing to cover my shift if I want to take part in anything theocratic that is "optional" like kingdom hall building projects. I was just invited to take part in one in two weeks for the first time ever. But then I realized I haven't been able to get the safety meeting done yet and cannot be on site without it. All the safety meetings I've known about are held on...wait for it....Saturdays. And I haven't been able to get it arranged due to various reasons to be able to get to one yet. As a result, I've missed out on my very first opportunity ever to be at a kingdom hall build. I am so frustrated and saddened by this. I am going to talk to my boss asap. Working weekends is so over!