Have you ever been so down on yourself or felt that you could be so much more than you are or that you are giving up too easily - and thus the feelings of guilt that comes with the aforementioned situations? I have - and I do. By way of explanation, Joe and I made the decision that it would be the best for me to come off the pioneer list for a year to refocus and redirect my energies to both physical and mental healing.
I have been struggling with this so much it's hard to put into words. The guilt, the sadness, the doubt. And then I got home today and checked my e-mail. And there it was.....
A wonderful e-mail from a pioneer school buddy, Jessie, that put such a peace in my heart and a smile on my face. Her words were like salve on my wounds or balsam in Gilead as it were.
All I can say is thank you Jehovah for helping me see that I am still useful and very much loved by you. And thank you Jessie for being there to answer my prayers-though you didn't know it until just now!
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